I'm sorry...

I haven't been the greatest friend to either of you lately. I want to apologize to both of you.

I'm sorry Cait that we've lost contact over the years. I didn't want it to be like this. I didn't want to ever lose you as a friend. But it seems like it's getting there. Cait, you've had a special place in my heart from the moment I met you in Sunday School. :') You welcomed me and made me feel comfortable in a time of my life that really needed it. I couldn't thank you enough for the love and support you've shown me. I'm extremely sorry I haven't been there for you, especially when you need it. I was afraid of losing you, and pushed you away in fear of you pushing me away. I don't know why I do it. I can't apologize enough. Cait, I love you very much. I really do hope you're happy. You're in good hands. I want you to know that you're an amazing woman and I admire your strength and courage.

Liz, I'm sorry that I can't be there to listen to you when you need a friend. I promised to always be there, but it seems I find excuse after excuse to not. I keep telling myself that I'm too busy with life. But all it takes is a call or an email. I have a hard time figuring out what to do. And I hope you can forgive me for my stupidity. The biggest thing I fear is losing friends. I don't want that to happen to us. You've been such a supportive friend. You've always listened to me when I need you. You've always helped me feel better. You've helped me through some dark times in my life. I couldn't thank you enough for everything you've done for me. I wouldn't be the person I am if it weren't for you. I love you, Liz. I'm going to try harder to be there for you when you need it. I promise.

I love you both very much. You two are very precious to me. I hope we can still be friends through all our differences. I'm sorry if I've ever caused you grief or confusion. I have a hard time trying to figure out what the right thing to do is. Just know, that I love you both and I hope to always have you two in my life.

Cass.