Hmm...

Does that mean it's my turn? Lol. Just kidding. But, yeah. I love you Caiti, I'm so sorry. I hope that maybe now that the silence has been broken we can figure out what happened. Thanks for being the first to jump Caiti. Me and Cass are right behind you. I'm sorry if I seem lighthearted during a serious event. I don't mean it to be that way. I'm just.... happy, I guess is the word.

Hello again world. Too much has changed to list, but know that I'm happy. I'm discovering more about myself everyday. I hope that this break of silence will mean that I'll have somewhere to spill my guts about everything. I have my own blog, but I feel like I'm just talking to myself there. Not here. So yeah.

I'm not sure how much of this post makes sense. I stayed up almost all night last night. But the important part is, Caiti and Cass I love you.

Liz,

Just a raggedy anne, in a barbie doll world.

Apologetic Love

There comes times in our lives where we do things we regret and wish we could take back. Losing contact with you, Caiti, is one of the things I regret. Honey, I love you dearly and you've helped me through some of the hardest years of my life, and I miss having you there and having you as a friend. Repairing friendships are extremely difficult (take James and Williams for example) but I want us to try. I still want you in my life, and I'm terribly sorry if I've ever hurt you. I can promise you, it was unintentional if I ever did. One of my biggest fears is to lose my friends, and I don't want to lose you. I hope it's not too late. :3 Part of the reason why I haven't posted in forever is because I forgot the email for this blog, Liz reminded me what it was. And I had to remind her the password. O.o But that's no excuse to shut you out. I haven't meant to push you away in anyway. Life gets so crazy sometimes it's hard to find time for everything I want. And that, as well, is no excuse. I am so sorry if I've done anything to hurt or offend. I hope you can accept my apology. I still love you very much. I hope I can be here for you for these next two years. I can't even imagine what you might be going through right now.

Now, the thing about you finishing a book? I totally understand where you're coming from. We both read a lot in high school, but you read more than me. And I haven't finished a book in almost 5 months now... It's a weird feeling to think that I don't read anymore. So I congratulate you on actually finishing one. :) It's a big task when it's hard to find time.

Today I confronted a boy about something that was really hard for me to ask. I felt like a jerk because I asked kind of rudely and accusative, but... things are working out ok I think. Boys are difficult. Also, I've decided that the template we've got on this blog is a tad outdated ;). So I'ma change it. Let me know if either of you girlies don't like it. And I'll try and find something else.

XOXO

*Cass*

time.

isn't it funny how through time, everything changes. i know that i'm being sentimental....but i feel i have a right. james is going on a mission. he'll be gone for two years. and who knows about what all will happen. everything has changed so much. i'll get on this computer, look at this screen. and wonder if anyone else does. i've waited and waited for someone to make a move. too hurt and scared to try for anything. today i sat down to my computer. finished my paper for art history. a paper that i would used to have put off until last minute. and here i've finished it early. two weeks early. and i look at this screen. and before i know it i'm typing. i'm typing here, like i have tried so many times and have had nothing come out. but now i'm typing. i'm typing. i've finished an entire book today. i finished a book. i haven't done that in so long. and i have to share it. i've finished a book. me caiti has finally finished a book.

i read it all. every last word.

i finished a book.
caiti.