wow...

so for some reason during choir rehearsal tonight we were singing 'sure on this shinning night' and it reminded me of scott, i haven't thought of him that much lately... anyway, it reminded me of him because when william, james, cait, liz, and i started singing in this choir, and when i found out we'd be singing sure on this shinning night i got all excited. i LOVE that song so much. and i told him about it. and he said he's never heard it, i told him that he'll have to come to our concert when we sing it because the song is BEAUTIFUL. but alas... he's not going to come. and i don't feel like inviting hime. but back to my story. as i was singing this song today the realization hit me, 'i'm ready to move on. i know this is going to hurt a whole lot, but i'm SICK of feeling so attached to someone that i can't have anymore.' and i started crying. and it was a good ish... type of tears. i don't know why of all days i've realized this, but i think it's finally time to let him go. i know you guys will say that it was time a LONG time ago. but now i'm ready. i'm going to miss the old scott i fell in love with. i'll miss him a whole lot. but forgetting about him is for the better. and i know you two will help me as much as i need. :)

~cassie