Cass

I think that it's good that you forget about Scott, Cass. You couldn't move on until you were ready, and now you seem more ready. I know that you are regretting that you aren't as great of friends with him as before, but I think that will change with time. Look what happened with William. You didn't want to be around him for a long time after you guys broke up... but now you're good friends. I think will work out with Scott eventually. The first step is just getting over him, and you're doing ok. You just needed to be ready to let go.
Elizabeth

wow...

so for some reason during choir rehearsal tonight we were singing 'sure on this shinning night' and it reminded me of scott, i haven't thought of him that much lately... anyway, it reminded me of him because when william, james, cait, liz, and i started singing in this choir, and when i found out we'd be singing sure on this shinning night i got all excited. i LOVE that song so much. and i told him about it. and he said he's never heard it, i told him that he'll have to come to our concert when we sing it because the song is BEAUTIFUL. but alas... he's not going to come. and i don't feel like inviting hime. but back to my story. as i was singing this song today the realization hit me, 'i'm ready to move on. i know this is going to hurt a whole lot, but i'm SICK of feeling so attached to someone that i can't have anymore.' and i started crying. and it was a good ish... type of tears. i don't know why of all days i've realized this, but i think it's finally time to let him go. i know you guys will say that it was time a LONG time ago. but now i'm ready. i'm going to miss the old scott i fell in love with. i'll miss him a whole lot. but forgetting about him is for the better. and i know you two will help me as much as i need. :)

~cassie

Response

I never really thought that you had a lot of problems cass... everyone has hard times but it doesn't seem like you make things worse for yourself... unless there are things I don't know about, I think you're handling things pretty well... but then again I have had a hard time letting go of someone before... maybe it just depends on the type of person... maybe others see it as having problems but I don't because I have dealt with things the same way. I cried for an entire day basically when the last boy broke my heart... and it took me a while to be ok with it. I don't know, maybe I'm not answering any of your questions...

... oh well

lookie see! another post from me!

so i just had a lovely chat with our dear friend william. it was... interesting. we talked about how i was holding up mostly. and he pointed out (and not trying to be mean or offensive) that i have a lot of problems. do i really? i never thought i did. or do i create my own problems? it's something i've been thinking about since i dropped him off. i've always t thought my life was pretty simple. but i never took a step back and looked at it from someone elses point of view. maybe from someone else i seem like i have a lot of problems. but inside my head it feels like i like being hurt. i dunno. it's confusing... and quite twisted. i don't want to be that way. so i guess i should change.

do i really have a lot of problems? maybe it's cuz i don't let things go that often. sorry for my rambling. but... there's just some things that are better written down (in this case typed) than stuck in my brain. so yeah. that's what i'm probably going to think about for then next while. anyhow. good night world.

~cassie

*shrugs*

i can't believe it's been three months sense we started this. how cool. sorry, i'm in an 'eh' type of mood. just shrugging things off. trying not to let anything get to me.

so some good news is I HAS A CAR!!!! my daddy helped me get a car. i loves it so very much. and i'll forever be thankful to how amazing my parents really are. oh! and i gots a job too! it'll be so much fun! i'm superly excited. i start training on monday. and it's going to be so much fun. i've just got to find some paperwork that i misplaced a while ago. yeah. i'm pretty much panicing inside. if i can't find it, i'll call the hiring guy to see what he says. cuz i KNOW it's here somewhere in the mess of my room, i just can't remember where i put it. so yeah. that's my news.

cass

Hard Times

I just wanted you both to know that even though I haven't been telling you everything, I love you very much. There are just some things that I don't think you need to be bothered with, and Cass all ready told me that I can tell her anything and I'm sure Cait feels the same, but I really can't talk about some things... I'm sorry. I knew you guys aren't dumb and would figure out that something was wrong and I'm sorry. I'm dealing with some stuff right now and I know that eventually I'll be ok, I just hope you guys will stick around.
Love you,
Elizabeth

um...

So I really don't know what to write, I just figured I'd post something since nothing has been posted for a while. School's been going well, it's midterm time, so I've been studying when I can and so on. I've taken two exams already, still don't know what I got on my first one. My Biology professor hasn't posted it on blackboard yet. But I know what I got on my religion exam, I got an 84%! A B! I'm so happy about that. Anyways, I really have no idea what to say...so that's all...

Caiti