so um, these past few days have probably been the hardest that i've gone through... scott broke up with me saturday night... :'( and oh boy! do i feel stupid. it's mostly because we got way too close, you know his promise to his sister, he broke that. and um... kinda made out too... ugh. and apparently it was MY fault that we did. ugh.... *bangs head on desk a bajillion times* WHY DOES HE HAVE TO BE SO YOUNG!?!?!?!?!?! why can't he be my age? that would make this a LOT easier. so yeah. oh! and he says he still loves me, and wants to be friends. earlier today i told him that i still loved him and i also want to be friends. but i had another break down during the movie we watched tonight, so i'm no longer in a good mood. i'm pissed and depressed. it SUCKS! man.... i wish i could control my emotions. but i guess it's impossible. UGH!!!!!! *smashes head against wall a bajillion, thrillion, million times* i just wish my thoughts and memories would quit torturing me. it's literally hell wanting something you can't have that you've had before. someone just shoot me now. i'll feel better. honest. i will.
cass
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